Mommy Guilt and a Hex Come True

Little Angel

First 100% on a Spelling Test!

Back when I was a teenager my mother laid a hex on me; that one day I shall have a daughter that would be JUST LIKE ME…. it worked, oh boy did it work. Taylor is now six years old and full of spunk.  She would argue with a tree if it meant she would get to talk.  It is never-ending, she argues her point even after she realizes that she has no point left.

Much of her behavior issues are my fault. I am horrible at consistency. The last year or so has been so busy for me, trying to get through the nursing program.  I admit, there were times I let her win, instead of sticking to my guns when she was testing how far she could push me, I let her win.  At the time I was doing what I thought was best. Some of the times it was because I felt guilty that I couldn’t do the things she wanted to do because I had to study or go to clinical so I wanted her to be happy.  Other times I was just so overwhelmed with class, reading, finances, lack of sleep, cleaning, etc. that I just COULDN’T take another minute of being firm.  I gave in.

None of those little decisions were major, it isn’t like I let her play in traffic or with weapons, but they had dire consequences.  Now that she knows that I do actually have a breaking point she tries her best to hit it. Over.and.over.again. Nothing seems to phase her, time outs? Nope. spankings? Nope. Taking away toys? Nope.  Unfortunately at one point I resorted to bribing- it worked, to a point- the point that she became like a coin operated monster!

Park Fun

Park Fun

The most recent thing that seems to be working is a ticket system, we even went and bought a roll of fair tickets. I still need to set up a cute little container for the tickets (now they are in a bowl!) But it seems to be working.  I will be working on a post this week all about it and will share my worksheet for anyone that would like to try it.  It is a combination of several pintrest pins I found that were similar to what I wanted.  Basically she earns tickets through the day, some a set amount and some are ‘bonus’ tickets for good behavior (trying to reinforce the good more than punish the bad) and then there are consequences where she can loose tickets for certain actions. Then at certain intervals she can cash out tickets for various rewards (will also teach budgeting!). I am hopeful that if we can keep it going and grow it as she grows that we can make even more progress. I sure hope so!

Mommy guilt can have some serious consequences, in my case it was causing some major behavior issues in my little angel. I see myself in her every day, and I hear my mother’s voice come out of my mouth daily as well.  I am constantly finding myself realizing just what my mother meant when she said things that when I had NO IDEA what she was talking about- “give an inch, take a mile?” Yeah, I totally get it now.

Have and advice for us? I would love to hear it.  Has mommy guilt or mommy stress caused you to do parenting things you regret or would like to change?  Is this fixable or have I broken my kid? lol



ENDED- The Hero of Color City – GIVEAWAY!

Giveaway ended- congratulations to Patty A! You have 24 hours to reply to the email I sent you with your mailing address! Thanks everyone!

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The Hero of Color CityI was lucky enough to get a review copy about an adorable movie being released on DVD and Blu-Ray tomorrow, Dec. 2, 2014- nursing school has taken over my life.  Not only is the movie cute and teaches children several life lessons but the company has partnered with a non-profit organization called nursing school has taken over my life; they collect crayons  from national and regional restaurant chains to donate to children in need.

This adorable movie follows Ben and his Crayons’ magical Crayon Box, which transports them to COLOR CITY, a world of dazzling hues, soaring fantasy and the whimsy of childhood. Find out what happens when crayons come to life in this charming new animated feature starring CHRISTINA RICCI,CRAIG FERGUSON, ROSIE PEREZ, WAYNE BRADY, JESSICA CAPSHAW and SEAN ASTIN!

My six-year-old loved the movie and has watched it twice today. I am ecstatic to be able to offer you the chance to win a FREE copy of the movie here. Super simple giveaway, just leave a comment letting me know why you think your child would like the movie and I will draw a random winner one week from today, on December 8th 2014. I will email the winner and announce here on the blog.

Because this is the fist giveaway I have hosted in quite a while, (nursing school has taken over my life!) I am keeping this one really simple, no extra or bonus entries- just a comment is all it takes. Feel free to share the post or any other for that matter though! Always appreciated! I finally graduate in May and am hoping to get lots more time to blog once I am settled in a job and working a normal schedule again!


My Journey to Become a Nurse

Three years ago, in March of 2011 I Our Class Schedule! my decision to become a nurse. In the three years since then things have been crazy!  After a ton of prerequisite classes I was Our Class Schedule! into the RN program in August 2013.  I have learned so much about myself in this journey, I have learned to be more outgoing along with how to start being a nurse.  It is said that most of the learning for nurses takes place after you graduate, and I believe it. We have learned a lot, don’t get me wrong- but I don’t feel ready at all to be a nurse on my own!  I graduate in May of 2015, then I take my boards and can officially work as a nurse.  I couldn’t be more excited!

Our Class Schedule!

Our Class Schedule!

My time in the program has been intense, emotional, scary, and one of the hardest journeys I have had to make. Being a mom and a nursing student is by no means easy! My husband helps as much as he can, but his schedule makes it where I do most of the parenting on my own. Now that Taylor is six years old that has been a challenge. She is really coming into her own little personality, and it is a lot like mine! Eeeek! I would like to thank my mother for that, her curse on me that I should one day have a child just like me has come true.

I have found strength in myself with every test, every challenge in the program that I thought I couldn’t overcome. While the classes and information were tough, I think the hardest adjustment for me is the people.  For years before I returned to college I was a blogger, a stay at home mom, a wife- I didn’t really interact with people aside from in grocery stores or preschool.  The prerequisite classes got me used to dealing with people in general; but a whole new problem happened once I actually got in the program…

I had heard that nursing programs were full of drama, all across the country- but I didn’t believe it, I mean why would people be so cruel to each other when we are all after the same goal?  Turns out the rumors were true, sadly I have encountered a lot of this.  There is nothing more depressing than feeling ashamed because you did well on a test just because others did not do as well. When we started everyone would share what they made on a test- we were excited! After a few tests though, those of us who were doing well had to start keeping our ‘win’ to ourselves because of the amount of dirty looks and judgement from others.  It has been a hard road to go down, and things did get better over time; I think it was a mixture of keeping my score to myself and the fact that the most hurtful classmates happened to fail out of the program along the way.

The clinical experience; where we do hands on training at hospitals; has been wonderful though. I have learned a lot, including what not to do in some cases!  I have been able to work in acute settings like the ICU and the emergency room, as well as in medical-surgical units and hospice facilities.  I loved the emergency room and the hospice rotation the most, and plan on working in both during the course of my career.

I start my last semester in January; Pediatrics and Obstetrics. Once I survive that semester I will be eligible to take the NCLEX and find a job in nursing.  The idea of working as a nurse excites me so much, one of the other hardest parts of nursing school is the money- or lack of it.  I am very much tired of being broke, tired of trying to figure out how to fit in groceries and Christmas presents in the same block of money. It will be a welcome change to do all this work and actually get a check instead of paying out for it.

I am loving my journey, hardships and all. It is bringing out strength that I never thought I had. My biggest regret is that I waited so long to begin. Although, I don’t think the twenty year old me could have pulled this off!  I will be counting down the hours until May 8th 2015 for sure!


Last Semester of Nursing School!

some giveawaysI am finally at the end, I can see my prize- the letters RN will be tagged onto my name after just one more semester! I have a final this week, on Friday- then a nice extended winter break before I go back in January to complete my final semester of nursing school! It has been a LONG journey, one that I am happy I went on but NEVER want to do again! :-) I have missed blogging, my family, and my sanity!

I am going to take advantage of this ‘break’ by getting my blog in order, catching up, and doing some giveaways to thank you for remaining faithful while I was too busy to pop in and post!

I am trying to keep myself from going crazy on pintrest and starting all sorts of new crafts- I am not the kind of mom that can pull that off as well as some can; my attempt would probably end up featured on a site like Pintrosity!

I have always WANTED to be that mom- but never have I been able to pull off something as cute as I can imagine it in my head! I even tried sewing a while back thinking that it would be easy to get down- no! I made a pillow case style dress for my daughter that ended up looking more like an actual pillow than a dress of any kind!

What about you? Any crafting fails or successes recently? Are you a pintrest mom that can pull off and post all those amazing things I see everyday?


No Rest for the Wicked

"Happy Mother's Day" -dust!?!

“Happy Mother’s Day” -dust!?!

This year has absolutely flown by. Last week we helped the Nursing Class of 2014 graduate, which puts us at the top! We are next! Just under a year now before I get to walk to the stage and get my degree, then to another ceremony to get pinned.  The semester we just finished was a rough one, we lost about a quarter of our class; at least.  Right now we are in our skills rotation, which is 90 hours of clinical time spread over 9 days, I had a few days between shifts so I thought I would be productive and try to blog some. I miss being able to blog when I want, the last year I had zero time between reading, studying, class, clinicals, and spending time with Taylor when I could! After skills we do Mental Health, it is the shortest semester but I think it will be the most fun for me!

I also accepted a ‘quick’ blog design job since I have a little more free time during this semester. Hopefully that will go as smoothly as planned and I will finish up before I start the Mental Health unit!  That bit of income will help buy the next round of books and supplies for school.

Mother’s Day was yesterday and was super sweet; I got a handmade bowl and some other goodies from my daughter, and she sent me a Maily that she made all by herself! Although she wrote ‘dust’ I am hoping she meant something else, and of course she said she couldn’t remember when I asked her!  She is getting so much better at reading and sounding out words. I wish she would stop growing for just a bit, it is all so fast!