Nursing School Updates



So, I am four weeks into the nursing program.  I am both loving it and hating it at the same time. I understand the content, I am loving learning new things, and even though I have NEVER read so much for a class I enjoy it. What I am not enjoying is the drama, the cliques, the ‘not knowing what to expect’ because the program made so many changes with our class that it is a hot mess now.  I did pass my first two tests though- so yay! 

However, even with all the unease, this will make graduation so much sweeter, the groups will change, the people will change.  I don’t think any of this would affect me as bad if it were not for all the drama in other parts of my life at this time.  My husband got laid off the Friday before I started classes, my financial aid is a disaster that I am striving to get fixed before refund checks are sent out so we can pay some bills, my daughter started kindergarten, and I am pretty sure one of my tires will blow out any day now. 

I should be reading now in fact, but I felt the need for a little break so here I am. (Procrastinate much?) I do love that I really do feel like I am learning something, something useful at least. The fact that it is all making sense so far is awesome too! I have days I wake up thinking there is no WAY I can do this… but the next day I wake up renewed and refreshed and excited to get back to it.  I will be much more at ease once my program settles down on the back-end and all the professors get on the same page, which is happening, slowly but surely.  I can’t blame them for how harsh they get at times, this change is hard on them as well, I just have to remind myself that this is all new for all of us, and we will survive, no matter what happens. I hope…. 


I got in!!! RN Class of 2015!

i-can-t-keep-calm-because-i-just-got-accepted-into-nursing-schoolFINALLY! Two years of prerequisites and co-requisites and I finally got the letter I have been waiting on- I got in!! I start classes in August and should finish in May of 2015. Life is going to change, I will be even more busy than I have been but at least I am on the final road now, no longer trying to make it to the main avenue!  

I have recently joined a gym to try to get rid of some of the ‘freshman 15 (50)’ I have gained, when we start clinicals in September our uniforms are all white- I so don’t want to be a marshmallow look-a-like! :-)

I am so excited to get started; our orientation is on the 25th and I wish it would get here already! I want to know everything!  I will be going to my mom’s in Dallas for about a month between orientation and when classes start so that will help keep me distracted I hope! Time has practically stopped since the letter got here! 

In other news- my daughter graduated pre-school last week- winning an award for being the most dramatic of her class….. yeah, proud parenting moment there!  It sure fits her though!  Her first day of kindergarten is also my first day of nursing school so it will be a exciting day all around!


New Year, New Me

The new year came and went, I barely stayed awake for midnight myself! One of my resolutions was to eat better and lose some weight. That resolution really became a need when I saw myself in some Christmas pictures, wow! So here we go, it is day four (I procrastinated starting my diet!) and so far I am down just two pounds but I feel confident that I can do better in the coming weeks.  The plan is to try to post here as we go to keep myself accountable. 

I would really like to lose at least 50 pounds by August, that is when I will be starting clinicals in Nursing school and our uniforms are all white… I will be nervous enough without having to get a HUGE white uniform that shows all my flaws! 

One of my first steps is drinking more water- like any water is a change… I am horrible at drinking water usually. After four days of making sure I drink at least 60 ounces of water a day I am noticing that my skin is clearer and I am less itchy, and I am running to the bathroom like I am pregnant again but I am sure my body will adjust to actually being hydrated soon! :-) 

Stay tuned for updates and more pictures along the way, if you would like to join me in my journey let me know, I will be happy to add a link you your blog in future updates! Here we go! 


Late Night ‘Mental’ Energy Surge

I hope I am not alone in this problem! I battle with insomnia pretty frequently, so often I am too tired to get a lot done that isn’t absolutely needed. At night when I am finally feeling tired and relaxed, trying to go to sleep I tend to get this amazing positive energy burst, at that moment; often 2am or later; I feel like I am going to be able to clean the house, organize the closets, dust the cobwebs; even work out the next day…. Then the next day comes and I am just as tired as the day before!

So, for about 30 minutes most nights I feel amazing, I don’t know if it is the relaxation that is giving me the false sense of being rested, or if I am just plain crazy. I have even tried to get up right then and start cleaning or working out- just to quickly peter out after about 20 minutes and feel like crud and head back to bed!

I am hopeful that one of these days I will wake up feeling as good as I imagine the night before; until then the clothes stay folded on the couch, the fans are dusty, and the cobwebs are happy. Has anyone else experiences this kind of feeling? Any tips to make it last to the next day? :-)


Time, Energy, Future, Present

Time, I have so much time, but it is filled with so much right now. When I am not in the middle of doing something I am thinking about what I need to be doing.  I am always trying to figure out my next move, the next assignment, the next appointment, the next test.  The amount of energy I have is not matching up with the amount of time I spend doing things.  My future is so close to me but it feels like a million miles away when I am lacing the energy to do the things I need to do right now. 

If only things were more simple, there are so many semantics that go along with every decision and every goal.  I want to become a nurse. I want to get my bachelors in Nursing… before I can do that I need to get into the Nursing program, but instead of being able to just apply and go – it has to be difficult, I understand having classes that need to be completed before you can apply, totally, I appreciate that, it makes sure you are serious before you can begin the program… BUT do they really have to only allow you to apply once a YEAR? Because I have ONE class left to finish I can not apply to the Nursing program next month. The program will not start until Summer, by the time I started the program that one last math class will have been done. But because I can’t apply I now have to wait a YEAR, NEXT march to apply. Adding a whole year to my schooling before I can work. 

The other option is to try to apply to another school 45 minutes from here, but that has a whole new set of problems, I have to work out the transfer, financial aid, credit transfer, just a lot of hassle. I am going to do it, it is worth it to finish my education a year sooner.  But it does not make it any easier to deal with internally.  Just so much stuff to work out…. 

That does not include the house cleaning, organizing, budgeting, a three year old that I swear is a 13 year old me in a tiny little body- so much attitude comes out of that little girl!  The biggest blessing is that Joseph started working again, my goodness that has been amazing, the level of stress that cured was outstanding.  I was terrified that he wouldn’t find a job- or that the job he did find would have crazy hours, low pay, and be worse than before. But by the grace of God he got his old job back, and it seems to be going well. Normal hours, more pay than unemployment, less stress, ahhhhhhh….. :-) 

It will work, I will get a degree, I will stay in school until I do- and I will love every minute of this crazy- stressful life!