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No Rest for the Wicked

"Happy Mother's Day" -dust!?!

“Happy Mother’s Day” -dust!?!

This year has absolutely flown by. Last week we helped the Nursing Class of 2014 graduate, which puts us at the top! We are next! Just under a year now before I get to walk to the stage and get my degree, then to another ceremony to get pinned.  The semester we just finished was a rough one, we lost about a quarter of our class; at least.  Right now we are in our skills rotation, which is 90 hours of clinical time spread over 9 days, I had a few days between shifts so I thought I would be productive and try to blog some. I miss being able to blog when I want, the last year I had zero time between reading, studying, class, clinicals, and spending time with Taylor when I could! After skills we do Mental Health, it is the shortest semester but I think it will be the most fun for me!

I also accepted a ‘quick’ blog design job since I have a little more free time during this semester. Hopefully that will go as smoothly as planned and I will finish up before I start the Mental Health unit!  That bit of income will help buy the next round of books and supplies for school.

Mother’s Day was yesterday and was super sweet; I got a handmade bowl and some other goodies from my daughter, and she sent me a Maily that she made all by herself! Although she wrote ‘dust’ I am hoping she meant something else, and of course she said she couldn’t remember when I asked her!  She is getting so much better at reading and sounding out words. I wish she would stop growing for just a bit, it is all so fast!

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Nursing School Updates

 

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So, I am four weeks into the nursing program.  I am both loving it and hating it at the same time. I understand the content, I am loving learning new things, and even though I have NEVER read so much for a class I enjoy it. What I am not enjoying is the drama, the cliques, the ‘not knowing what to expect’ because the program made so many changes with our class that it is a hot mess now.  I did pass my first two tests though- so yay! 

However, even with all the unease, this will make graduation so much sweeter, the groups will change, the people will change.  I don’t think any of this would affect me as bad if it were not for all the drama in other parts of my life at this time.  My husband got laid off the Friday before I started classes, my financial aid is a disaster that I am striving to get fixed before refund checks are sent out so we can pay some bills, my daughter started kindergarten, and I am pretty sure one of my tires will blow out any day now. 

I should be reading now in fact, but I felt the need for a little break so here I am. (Procrastinate much?) I do love that I really do feel like I am learning something, something useful at least. The fact that it is all making sense so far is awesome too! I have days I wake up thinking there is no WAY I can do this… but the next day I wake up renewed and refreshed and excited to get back to it.  I will be much more at ease once my program settles down on the back-end and all the professors get on the same page, which is happening, slowly but surely.  I can’t blame them for how harsh they get at times, this change is hard on them as well, I just have to remind myself that this is all new for all of us, and we will survive, no matter what happens. I hope…. 

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I got in!!! RN Class of 2015!

i-can-t-keep-calm-because-i-just-got-accepted-into-nursing-schoolFINALLY! Two years of prerequisites and co-requisites and I finally got the letter I have been waiting on- I got in!! I start classes in August and should finish in May of 2015. Life is going to change, I will be even more busy than I have been but at least I am on the final road now, no longer trying to make it to the main avenue!  

I have recently joined a gym to try to get rid of some of the ‘freshman 15 (50)’ I have gained, when we start clinicals in September our uniforms are all white- I so don’t want to be a marshmallow look-a-like! :-)

I am so excited to get started; our orientation is on the 25th and I wish it would get here already! I want to know everything!  I will be going to my mom’s in Dallas for about a month between orientation and when classes start so that will help keep me distracted I hope! Time has practically stopped since the letter got here! 

In other news- my daughter graduated pre-school last week- winning an award for being the most dramatic of her class….. yeah, proud parenting moment there!  It sure fits her though!  Her first day of kindergarten is also my first day of nursing school so it will be a exciting day all around!

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Time, Energy, Future, Present

Time, I have so much time, but it is filled with so much right now. When I am not in the middle of doing something I am thinking about what I need to be doing.  I am always trying to figure out my next move, the next assignment, the next appointment, the next test.  The amount of energy I have is not matching up with the amount of time I spend doing things.  My future is so close to me but it feels like a million miles away when I am lacing the energy to do the things I need to do right now. 

If only things were more simple, there are so many semantics that go along with every decision and every goal.  I want to become a nurse. I want to get my bachelors in Nursing… before I can do that I need to get into the Nursing program, but instead of being able to just apply and go – it has to be difficult, I understand having classes that need to be completed before you can apply, totally, I appreciate that, it makes sure you are serious before you can begin the program… BUT do they really have to only allow you to apply once a YEAR? Because I have ONE class left to finish I can not apply to the Nursing program next month. The program will not start until Summer, by the time I started the program that one last math class will have been done. But because I can’t apply I now have to wait a YEAR, NEXT march to apply. Adding a whole year to my schooling before I can work. 

The other option is to try to apply to another school 45 minutes from here, but that has a whole new set of problems, I have to work out the transfer, financial aid, credit transfer, just a lot of hassle. I am going to do it, it is worth it to finish my education a year sooner.  But it does not make it any easier to deal with internally.  Just so much stuff to work out…. 

That does not include the house cleaning, organizing, budgeting, a three year old that I swear is a 13 year old me in a tiny little body- so much attitude comes out of that little girl!  The biggest blessing is that Joseph started working again, my goodness that has been amazing, the level of stress that cured was outstanding.  I was terrified that he wouldn’t find a job- or that the job he did find would have crazy hours, low pay, and be worse than before. But by the grace of God he got his old job back, and it seems to be going well. Normal hours, more pay than unemployment, less stress, ahhhhhhh….. :-) 

It will work, I will get a degree, I will stay in school until I do- and I will love every minute of this crazy- stressful life!

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$649 for Books…

Wow, went and bought my books for college, $649 for four classes and I still need to go get a lab coat, back pack, and some other misc things… Can’t believe books cost that much! The anatomy class books alone were $249!!