So, I am four weeks into the nursing program. I am both loving it and hating it at the same time. I understand the content, I am loving learning new things, and even though I have NEVER read so much for a class I enjoy it. What I am not enjoying is the drama, the cliques, the ‘not knowing what to expect’ because the program made so many changes with our class that it is a hot mess now. I did pass my first two tests though- so yay!
However, even with all the unease, this will make graduation so much sweeter, the groups will change, the people will change. I don’t think any of this would affect me as bad if it were not for all the drama in other parts of my life at this time. My husband got laid off the Friday before I started classes, my financial aid is a disaster that I am striving to get fixed before refund checks are sent out so we can pay some bills, my daughter started kindergarten, and I am pretty sure one of my tires will blow out any day now.
I should be reading now in fact, but I felt the need for a little break so here I am. (Procrastinate much?) I do love that I really do feel like I am learning something, something useful at least. The fact that it is all making sense so far is awesome too! I have days I wake up thinking there is no WAY I can do this… but the next day I wake up renewed and refreshed and excited to get back to it. I will be much more at ease once my program settles down on the back-end and all the professors get on the same page, which is happening, slowly but surely. I can’t blame them for how harsh they get at times, this change is hard on them as well, I just have to remind myself that this is all new for all of us, and we will survive, no matter what happens. I hope….